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no serenity
00:57
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Digging my grave
Digging my grave
I’ve found myself inside your poison arms
again
No hope no serenity
I’ve waited all my life to take a breathe and be the last one
(So fucking kill yourself)
No hope
No serenity
No hope
No serenity
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2. |
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I’ll stay right here
Like an anchor in your gut
Separations not enough
To break this curse
We run circles
(In circles)
Revolutions of you in my mind
(In my mind)
We run circles
(In circles)
Revolutions of you in my mind
(In my mind)
Well don’t you think for a second
That this could be over
(We can’t stay here forever)
Its always times like this
that I find it hard to breathe
And believe
You could stay
I’ll stay right here
Like an anchor in your gut
Separations not enough to
Break this curse
And I’m sorry I’m sorry But baby you were always breaking me down
(Breaking me down)
Is this not enough
Am I the only one
Am I the only one who hates goodbyes
your words they kill me deep inside when you say goodnight
baby i’m a mirror with shattered glass
you say it’s bad luck?
well how long will it last
you’ve seen the diamonds in my eyes
well they weren’t there til you surprised me and came back
our love is a ship that’s sinking fast
hold me close baby
you said i'm your lifeline
Well don’t you think for a second
That this could be over
(Could be over)
Well don’t you think for a second
That this could be over
(Could be over)
Every time that you leave
All the diamonds fall out my eyes
(I wanna love you, but you don’t love u, how do I love me too)
Every time that you leave
All the diamonds fall out my eyes
(I wanna love u, but u don’t love u, how do I love me too)
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I know you move at the pace of your secrets
You toss and you turn when you're dreaming
And I think you’ve said enough
I think you’ve said enough
your reasons feel like cancer
Scratch at my skin
Wish that I could forget your touch
It’s not enough
Wait till the morning
I promise this will all be over
I’m tired of this mess
I feel an increased distance
Empty bottles cover your room
How long until you're in full bloom
All this regret makes me sick to my stomach
(Has this gone too long
Gone too long)
It’s not enough, it’s not enough
I took much and I don’t think
I can stop whenever I want
I can stop whenever I want
You said you don’t want this to be over
Try and keep your composure
Don’t think about it too much
You said you don’t want this to be over
Try and keep your composure
Don’t think about it too much
I’m tired if this mess
I feel an increased distance
Empty bottles cover your room
How long until you're in full bloom
I can stop whenever I want
I’m so sick to my stomach
It’s hard to believe
I can stop Whenever I want
I’m so sick to my stomach
It’s hard to believe
We’ve been falling on and off
(I feel so sick to my stomach it’s hard to believe)
We’ve been falling on and off
(I feel so sick to my stomach it’s hard to believe)
We’ve been falling on and off
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4. |
burying a parent
03:35
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Did you even stop and think for a second
before you stopped the beat of your heart
Everyday’s been hard without you
but I make it through some how
And i swear to god i still hear your singing
To every song at ur favorite part
Everyday's been hard without you
But you’re six feet under
can’t turn back now
You’re gone
So long for right now
911
I need you here right now
And the worst part is nothing can bring you back
(You know that I shouldn’t have to bury you)
Did you really have to go? Was it all that bad ?
(I’m so sorry)
One last time
Sleep well, I’ll be fine
Told you over and over again
(Over and over again)
Everybody said that things would get easier
But pretending is the easiest part
(It’s so hard to tell the difference here lately
It’s so hard to tell the difference here lately)
There’s so much that I wanted to say to you
But I left it on a note in the waiting room
the waiting room
the waiting room
the waiting room
You’re gone
So long for right now
911
I need you here right now
And the worst part is nothing can bring you back
(You know that I shouldn’t have to bury you)
Did you really have to go? Was it all that bad ?
(I’m so sorry)
One last time
Sleep well, I’ll be fine
Told you over and over again
(Over and over again)
Sleep well
Now I’ll never see your face again
So long oh reality is sinking in
Flatline
can’t get you off my mind
I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine
I’ll be fine
I’ll be
Life is but a stopping place
A pause in between
To Sweet Eternity
Now I’ll never see your face again
And it’s killing me
I hope you found your peace
Now I’ll never see your face again
Oh reality is setting in
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5. |
six foot dug out holes
03:04
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I’ve been holding on to words I can’t say right
But I know they’ll sound better in the morning
When i hold you close
sometimes i wonder why
All the constant back and fourth
becomes so haunting
The way you talk just makes my skin start crawling
(But I can stand to be by myself at all)
I’ll do better if you just stop calling
(But you stand to be by urself at all)
Everything I ever said to you I really regret
Left to pick up all pieces when you get in mess
These are things i guess I never really got off my chest
I know I’m a problem baby you’re no better
We’ve been here a thousand times
Not a chance of moving foward
(I know we tried so hard but it’s not enough)
Well maybe in a different life a different world this could all be better
That’s just wishful thinking
Wishful thinking
This irony is burying to the touch
Everyday is the same old story
Everyday is the same old story
I’m so sorry but that last just not enough
You sleep in 6 foot dug out holes where All your words are a casket
and you keep going on and on til your not breathing
(So just tell me what you’re trying to say
I’m so sick and tired of playing a game)
The way u talk just makes my skin start crawling
(But I can stand to be by myself at all)
I’ll do better if u just stop calling
(But u stand to be by urself at all)
Everything I ever said to you I really regret
Left to pick up all pieces when you get in mess
These are things i guess I never really got off my chest
I know I’m a problem baby you’re no better
You sleep in 6 foot dug out holes where
all your words are a casket
and you keep going on and on til your not breathing
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I’ll hold my breathe till the veins in my neck start to rupture
And not much has been said but I’ll show her somehow that I love her
One last cigarette
Whiskey on my breathe
Don’t take me out
Don’t take me out
Not now
And Maybe I’m just scared
That when we die
Where do we go
And can I take you there ?
Cross my heart don’t ever die
If I do I swear I tried
I promise that I’ll find you
I will find you
Come back like the ocean tide
Waves of all the tears we cried
I promise that I’ll find you
I will find you
I don’t wanna think too hard about the day we run all out of time
The scars on your wrist mark a place for me to find you in the sky
One last cigarette
Whiskey on my breathe
Don’t take me out
Don’t take me out
Not now
And Maybe I’m just scared
That when we die
Where do we go
And can I take you there ?
Cross my heart don’t ever die
If I do I swear I tried
I promise that I’ll find you
I will find you
Come back like the ocean tide
Waves of all the tears we cried
I promise that I’ll find you
I will find you
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if i die first Los Angeles, California
ifidiefirstband@gmail.com
lotus, zubin, travis, ned & derek
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